Bygones are bygones!

I aim to move forward and look at good over bad. But I see more of bad than good. I guess it is human nature to not let go of wrong. As human I define myself and others around me. I do not think before I go an extra mile for people I care. Who do I care more for? I do not know because I care equally for all. Is that what I did wrong? Did I care for the ones who cared less about me?Maybe this is a wake up call that I should care for myself and me and not for everybody! But that's what and who I am. I care and will care. Then why the questions? Questions like should I continue to be myself and do what I have been doing for people around me? Should I trust people? I do not know. I am lost and confused. My heart is heavy with profound feeling of disappointment. Why did what ever that happened, happen? Where did I go wrong? Was I too blind to see that people are not what they look? Questions echo inside my head all the time. Questions that are dark as night and deep as the sea. Answers seem to elude me. I look for answers in people. I talk about my pain, sometimes I laugh it out, sometimes I cry and sometimes I just choose to forget it. But forgetting turns out is not easy, forgiving is. So I decide to forgive for now but I will not forget. I will remember and not let bygones be bygones!