Frequent trips to the bathroom, larger than life apetite, constant hunt for clothes bigger than the last one, desire to do crazy things, inability to sleep comfortably, constant throbbing inside my head, sudden emotional outbursts,... The list is long and being pregnant was not exactly joy until the day when I felt a kick from inside my belly. It was mild at first and then became much more frequent and just like that I touched my belly and felt the "Joy!"
Yes, I am 23 weeks pregnant. No I am not putting on weight like people say they do for one reason and many. To begin with like so many women I was diagonsed with Gestational Diabetes and am on protien only diet which means that I cannot eat carbs therefore no weight gain. It is a blessing in disguise because I have never been the skinny kind. No one in my family has ever been so and I do not mind because I can jog, walk and climb mountains. I always ate right and felt right. And for one I do not believe in the so called "Skinny Bitches" who should know that fat can grow on organs too! So next time you see a curvy woman don't judge. No one is immune to health issues.
I beileve in eat right and feel right policy. Anything within or beyond moderation is never good we all know that just that we do not follow it! Plus there are enough women I know who are overweight just like me not because they eat more just because that is how they are.
So far I have kept my weight within the needed limits and it makes me very happy. Somehow pregnancy has changed my perspective about being a woman and about life. I was not the same before.
I remember the first time in 2007 when my doctor looked at my missed periods and told me about PCOS. I did not know that PCOS leads to weight gain and that was like a big mystery being solved. So for people who ask condescending questions like,"Were you always like this!" My answer is,"Yes, and fuck off!" The next thing my doctor told me was that I had 1/1000 chances of getting pregnant.
Her words kept ringing in my ears for a long time and then eventually I forgot about it. I did visit couple of more OB/GYN's who painted the same picture and I gave up on the idea of being a mother. I mean do I have to bear a baby to be a mother? Doesn't hurt to adopt so many kids who have no one out there. No offense dear child in my belly. Mommy loves you just fine.
I have always loved kids. Especially my nephews who are the centre of my universe. I highly doubt if I will love my kid the way I loved them? I am sure I will but there are always doubts. Motherhood is not easy. So there I was almost done with studies and having earned enough dough from my job wondering if I should think about babies! And then just like that we decided to try if it clicks fine or else move along with life.
Until I realized that I was pregnant. A miracle had happened 1/1000 chance had happened. The first thing my OB/GYN told me was that it was indeed a miracle! And man was I happy till morning sickness hit me so hard that the next 7 weeks were nightmare that I doubted whether I had once hoped for something of this sort. Fortunately things just fell back to place and I had fun for a few weeks till I was diagnosed with GD! It hurt! Why me? I cried and screamed and then surprisingly I learnt to live with it. And turns out I enjoy eating in moderation and seeing my weight not fly out of the roof!
Yes, doctors in this country go a little over board when it comes to treatment but think of it is it not better to prevent than to cure and plus what kind of moron would consult a doctor in India at this time assuming that Indian doctors are better than American ones? All I know is that there are only two kinds of doctors-good and bad. Mine is excellent. He is the warmest doctor I have ever come across.
From then on there I was excited about every ultrasound and every kick I felt. I have to admit kiciking is the best part. It is the time you want to weep so hard with joy that it hits your gut. Of course the downside is people who frustrate you with questions about morning sickness, boy or a girl blah blah blah!!! Well it is at that time that I find it the hardest to keep a straight face and answer them. Takes lot of patience to bear with them.
Well can't blame them they just want to be part of my happiness. Sweet! Unfortunately I am not the OMG excited mother. For me it is just an event like so many others. I will pop a baby out like so many other women around the globe. And yes I do not give rat's ass whether it is a girl or a boy because I do not believe a girl can be any less than a boy. And honestly how does having a girl change anything for anyone. Ofcourse there was this very good friend of mine who said,"But our society prefers boys!" True then I don't want any part of that stupid society. I mean society can take its rules and shove it up its ass. For all I care I do not follow rules and I will not expect my kid to do the same.
And then there are these big hypocrites who go,"If I have a daughter I will move to India." Seriously????? Like girls in India do not do the unthinkable! And before that I have a question for them,"Why the hell are you here. If you have issues with the US leave no one asked you to be here!" What has place got to do with anything? And what is the guaranty that boys won't stray? Things happen thats how the world works!
For now I am just glad that my little miracle is fit and fine and happy in my belly. Or so I think so. Just that if next time you hear woman saying how she enjoyed her pregnancy know that most of the time she is lying. It is not possible to enjoy pregnancy till you start feeling the baby and till the belly pops out and people start giving you special priveleges. That's when it is time to cut lines, not get tickets, buy what you want in the name of the kid inside you!
Yeah it is kind of an abuse but hey we don't get pregnant every day so till I pop this baby out I get to do what I want and how I want!
This far onto my blog and my baldder is full and now I desperately want to pee pee. So off to bathroom till I get something worthwhile to blog about.
Yes, I am 23 weeks pregnant. No I am not putting on weight like people say they do for one reason and many. To begin with like so many women I was diagonsed with Gestational Diabetes and am on protien only diet which means that I cannot eat carbs therefore no weight gain. It is a blessing in disguise because I have never been the skinny kind. No one in my family has ever been so and I do not mind because I can jog, walk and climb mountains. I always ate right and felt right. And for one I do not believe in the so called "Skinny Bitches" who should know that fat can grow on organs too! So next time you see a curvy woman don't judge. No one is immune to health issues.
I beileve in eat right and feel right policy. Anything within or beyond moderation is never good we all know that just that we do not follow it! Plus there are enough women I know who are overweight just like me not because they eat more just because that is how they are.
So far I have kept my weight within the needed limits and it makes me very happy. Somehow pregnancy has changed my perspective about being a woman and about life. I was not the same before.
I remember the first time in 2007 when my doctor looked at my missed periods and told me about PCOS. I did not know that PCOS leads to weight gain and that was like a big mystery being solved. So for people who ask condescending questions like,"Were you always like this!" My answer is,"Yes, and fuck off!" The next thing my doctor told me was that I had 1/1000 chances of getting pregnant.
Her words kept ringing in my ears for a long time and then eventually I forgot about it. I did visit couple of more OB/GYN's who painted the same picture and I gave up on the idea of being a mother. I mean do I have to bear a baby to be a mother? Doesn't hurt to adopt so many kids who have no one out there. No offense dear child in my belly. Mommy loves you just fine.
I have always loved kids. Especially my nephews who are the centre of my universe. I highly doubt if I will love my kid the way I loved them? I am sure I will but there are always doubts. Motherhood is not easy. So there I was almost done with studies and having earned enough dough from my job wondering if I should think about babies! And then just like that we decided to try if it clicks fine or else move along with life.
Until I realized that I was pregnant. A miracle had happened 1/1000 chance had happened. The first thing my OB/GYN told me was that it was indeed a miracle! And man was I happy till morning sickness hit me so hard that the next 7 weeks were nightmare that I doubted whether I had once hoped for something of this sort. Fortunately things just fell back to place and I had fun for a few weeks till I was diagnosed with GD! It hurt! Why me? I cried and screamed and then surprisingly I learnt to live with it. And turns out I enjoy eating in moderation and seeing my weight not fly out of the roof!
Yes, doctors in this country go a little over board when it comes to treatment but think of it is it not better to prevent than to cure and plus what kind of moron would consult a doctor in India at this time assuming that Indian doctors are better than American ones? All I know is that there are only two kinds of doctors-good and bad. Mine is excellent. He is the warmest doctor I have ever come across.
From then on there I was excited about every ultrasound and every kick I felt. I have to admit kiciking is the best part. It is the time you want to weep so hard with joy that it hits your gut. Of course the downside is people who frustrate you with questions about morning sickness, boy or a girl blah blah blah!!! Well it is at that time that I find it the hardest to keep a straight face and answer them. Takes lot of patience to bear with them.
Well can't blame them they just want to be part of my happiness. Sweet! Unfortunately I am not the OMG excited mother. For me it is just an event like so many others. I will pop a baby out like so many other women around the globe. And yes I do not give rat's ass whether it is a girl or a boy because I do not believe a girl can be any less than a boy. And honestly how does having a girl change anything for anyone. Ofcourse there was this very good friend of mine who said,"But our society prefers boys!" True then I don't want any part of that stupid society. I mean society can take its rules and shove it up its ass. For all I care I do not follow rules and I will not expect my kid to do the same.
And then there are these big hypocrites who go,"If I have a daughter I will move to India." Seriously????? Like girls in India do not do the unthinkable! And before that I have a question for them,"Why the hell are you here. If you have issues with the US leave no one asked you to be here!" What has place got to do with anything? And what is the guaranty that boys won't stray? Things happen thats how the world works!
For now I am just glad that my little miracle is fit and fine and happy in my belly. Or so I think so. Just that if next time you hear woman saying how she enjoyed her pregnancy know that most of the time she is lying. It is not possible to enjoy pregnancy till you start feeling the baby and till the belly pops out and people start giving you special priveleges. That's when it is time to cut lines, not get tickets, buy what you want in the name of the kid inside you!
Yeah it is kind of an abuse but hey we don't get pregnant every day so till I pop this baby out I get to do what I want and how I want!
This far onto my blog and my baldder is full and now I desperately want to pee pee. So off to bathroom till I get something worthwhile to blog about.
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